I can completely relate to where you’re at. It’s hard. I found Kratom while working at an adult store/smoke shop, and when I first started taking it I slowly was able to quit my drinking habit (I struggle with anxiety and it was the only thing that chilled me out because I couldn’t afford health insurance) here I am almost 2 years later with a close to 30 gram a day habit. I used to only take it at night but once the 12 hour mark hits I feel withdrawals and it sucks. I take 5 capsules in the morning, 5-6 in the afternoon and then like 10 or more at night. I’ve quit about 4 times and each time it sucked but I will say it was tolerable aside from the restless legs. That was the worst. The first couple of days are tough but it gets significantly easier after that. I was on the Reddit forum for a while but felt like it was a bit judgy there. Glad I found this site because it seems a lot more unbiased.