- September 26, 2019 at 9:11 pm #990ILoveDogsParticipant
My name is Claire….. been using k for a little over a year. Been sober from alcohol for almost 4 years and I cannot believe this is the situation I find myself in.
I started taking k because I felt so tired and shitty all of the time, I’ve now realised that I had a serious vitamin d deficiency all that time and probably for many years. Whilst it’s been a relief to have a good understanding of this NOW, I wish I’d known about it before I started on the k. I don’t know, maybe things would be different….. too late for that now.
So I think I probably take around 30-40g per day. A lot basically. Had an insight in to what withdrawal would be like – I’ve run out a couple of times, I did again last week and it was really late arriving. The most terrible experience….. it’s scared the shit out of me, seriously. I so badly now want to stop. Have started to put things together and I cannot remember the last time I did exercise, went out, read a book, had an amazing nights sleep, watched a film or good series on Netflix…. nothing…. all the joy has been sucked out of my life and I’m feeling very trapped at the moment. This is all the more difficult, because I worked so damn hard to get sober – hand on heart I can not say that I am sober anymore – it’s so depressing…. made me wonder if I’m just wired up or built that way and will never change.
I run my own business and literally work my socks off every day. Can not afford to take my foot off the gas at all, and cannot take time off…. this is a huge worry for me.
I’ve come across the taper programme and this seems like the best way. I will not be able to function going CT…. knowing what those few days did to me…. just unthinkable. I’ve ordered some scales and as soon as they arrive, I’ll start. Hope to keep you posted on how things go…. they cannot continue the way they are…. praying I have the strength to beat this. Once this happens, I’ll not go back….
Still kratom does have its uses and benefits. I’ll never slate it, because I truly believe it does help people. I’ve just been very stupid and abused the hell out of it. 😔
October 9, 2019 at 7:18 pm #992JessKeymaster
- This topic was modified 6 months, 2 weeks ago by ILoveDogs.
Hey there Ilovedogs.
How is your taper going?
I’ve found from going through this process a few times that it’s possible to taper pretty quickly in the beginning. If taking 40g per day one might be able to get away with dropping the dose 10g every 3 days or so.
Keep dropping it 5 or 10g every few days until you get to a point where you feel you’ve reached somewhat of a plateau. Then you can settle in for the long term taper.
I agree that Kratom has its place and can be very useful when controlled. I still use Kratom every now and then when I have a lot of physical work to do like when I am moving and I have a ton of boxes to load and unload from the moving truck.
If you have a hard time with the willpower part, a lot of folks on here have been having great results with hypnotherapy. We partnered with a hypnotherapist named Bill Engle who is just fantastic. I have heard of multiple people now that not only were able to quit using Kratom, but they have resolved other isssues as well such as smoking cigarettes and anxiety.
I hope to hear from you again and find out how you’re getting along. Sometimes having someone to talk to about it makes all the difference.
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